Mum's birthday

Yesterday was mum's birthday..early in the morning, sis sms me, saying that mum wanted us to buy a cake for her..and she specifically stated ice cream cake..I felt so funny coz my parents are like that, they will ask their children to get things that they want/desire..then we 3 sisters gotta shared the cost..but then, we need not crack our head on gifts to get..
So I told sis to get a cake from Baskin Robbins though it was expensive, RM80++..However, in the end, she bought it from her primary friend's bakery shop for RM38.00..
When she came home, mum gave an annoying statement, " I asked you not to buy cake, why you buy?"...oh dear, isnt this was what she wanted?...Then, later I found out that it was a misunderstanding..sis got her 'signal' wrongly!
Apparently, mum asked sis to buy ice cream, Baskin Robbins ice cream..out of nowhere, sis added the word 'cake'...haha...but sis tried to cover her fault by saying, the cake is for Father's day..if mum didn't want to eat, we can finish it...and true enough, in less than 10 min, both of us finished half of the cake..it was so enjoyable...muahaha..

Dear bloggie,

It had been a long break..been too busy lately especially with office works..works are piling up and I am just a normal human beings with 2 hands and one brain..some colleagues are not being considerate and it really made my life tough...so irritating when in fact, your work is being slow down by some irresponsible colleagues..so furious..

Hey..good news, I passed my CPA 4th paper..so happy to see the result..actually result was out on Friday but then I waited till Sunday, only I decided to check it..coz I was too scare to see the result..lack of confident...but God answered my prayer...I passed..my mum was happy, friends were happy...everyone was happy...The next step would be to enro for the last and final paper..but I didn't know which paper to take..should i retake Financial Accounting or to take Strategic Management???..should I take an easy paper just for the sake of completing the whole CPA prog or should I take a subject which in fact, very much useful in my career path?? urgh..tough decisions..

I was sick last Saturday..down with fever and soar throat..and I took MC..hehe..get to rest at home and sleep..But then, I went out with a friend from Doulos that afternoon..we watched a movie 'Cars'..actually I don't quite like watching cartoons and I slept in the cinema..haha...too tired I guessed...

Father's day...as usual, Sis and I gave dad a treat..dim sum..one of his favourite..sometimes I salute my dad for being able to eat all sort of food, despite of his age...he is 70 yrs old, but his body is just like a youth..imagine him eating KFC during midnight and go to sleep right after that..unbelievable isn't it..I think it's a blessings from God..thank you God..

Now that we have 2 pets at home, the whole family are always busy with them, feeding them, taking care of their 'toilet matters', hygience etc...but we enjoyed..everyday after work, when I reach home, my dog will greet me with his waving tail, then come the cat...and then, mum will tell me what happen each day between both pets..usualy the same stories ler..the cat will bully the dog..conquering the resting place of my dog..then how my cat catch insects and how naughty he is...hehe

ok..tat's all for now..will write more..

Marriage Attitude

Before marriage. .
Darling here.. darling there...
After marriage.
Baling here... baling there..

Before marriage. .
I die for you. . .
After marriage.
"You die, up to you.
" Lagi lama married. .
You die I help you!

Before marriage. .
You go anywhere.. . I follow you.
After marriage. . .
You go anywhere. . up to you.
Lagi lama married. . .
You go anywhere better get lost!!

Before wedding
you are my heart, you are my love"
After wedding
"you get on my nerves."

Before wedding
"you are sweet and kind just like Cinderella"
After wedding
"you are worse than godzila"

Before wedding
Roses are red, violets are blue.
Like it or not, I'm stuck with you
After wedding
Roses are dead, I am blue.
You get on my head, I will sue you

Before wedding
Every! makan he brings you to Shangri-La
After wedding
You want to go, he says you wait-la

Before wedding
She looks like Anita Sarawak
After wedding
Don't know whether katak or biawak

Before wedding
Weekends at Cameron, Genting and Fraser's Hill
After wedding
Furthest you go is Maxwell Hill

Before wedding
He opens the car door
After wedding
He opens his mouth and snores

Before wedding
She / he was your ideal
After wedding
She / he becomes your ordeal

Just for laugh

World Cup : Important Rules for Women


Extremely important advice and recommendations to be passed on to
girlfriends, fianc�s, mothers, sisters, daughters, etc. (to all women in
general) . These rules are to be communicated prior to the World Cup in
June/July this year...

List Of Rules.

1. From 9 June to 9 July 2006 , you should read the sports section of
the newspaper so that you are aware of what is going on regarding the
World Cup, and that way you will be able to join in the conversations. If
you fail to do this, then you will be looked at in a bad way, or you will
be totally ignored. DO NOT complain about not receiving any attention.

2. During the World Cup, the television is mine, at all times, without
any exceptions. If you even take a glimpse of the remote control, you will
lose it (your eye).

3. If you have to pass by in front of the TV during a game, I don't
mind, as long as you do it crawling on the floor and without distracting
me. If you decide to stand nude in front of the TV, make sure you put
clothes on right after because if you catch a cold, I wont have time to
take you to the doctor or look after you during the World Cup month.

4. During the games I will be blind, deaf and mute, unless I require a
refill of my drink or something to eat. You are out of your mind if you
expect me to listen to you, open the door, answer the telephone, or pick
up the baby that just fell from the second floor....it wont happen.

5. It would be a good idea for you to keep at least 2 six packs in the
fridge at all times, as well as plenty of things to nibble on, and please
do not make any funny faces to my friends when they come over to watch the
games. In return, you will be allowed to use the TV between 12am and 6am ,
unless they replay a good game that I missed during the day.

6. Please, please, please!! if you see me upset because one of my
teams is losing, DO NOT say "get over it, its only a game", or "don't
worry, they'll win next time". If you say these things, you will only make
me angrier and I will love you less. Remember, you will never ever know
more about football than me and your so called "words of encouragement"
will only lead to a break up or divorce.

7. You are welcome to sit with me to watch one game and you can talk
to me during halftime but only when the commercials are on, and only if
the halftime score is pleasing me. In addition, please note I am saying
"one" game, hence do not use the World Cup as a nice cheesy excuse to
"spend time together".

8. The replays of the goals are very important. I don't care if I have
seen them or I haven't seen them, I want to see them again. Many times.

9. Tell your friends NOT to have any babies, or any other child
related parties or gatherings that requires my attendance because:
a) I will not go,
b) I will not go, and
c) I will not go.

10. But, if a friend of mine invites us to his house on a Sunday to
watch a game, we will be there in a flash.

11. The daily World Cup highlights show on TV every night is just as
important as the games themselves Do not even think about saying "but you
have already seen this...why don't you change the channel to something we
can all watch??", the reply will be: "Refer to Rule #2 of this list".

12. And finally, please save your expressions such as "Thank God the
World Cup is only every 4 years". I am immune to these words, because
after this comes the Champions League, Italian League, Spanish League,
Premier League,
etc etc.

Thank you for your cooperation.

Regards,
Men of the World

My collections

Dog & Cat

Hi...I am the new member of the Lin's family ..I am 5 months old









so privilege to sleep on the sofa right..





I looked miserable right???The cat is now the highlight in the family...sob sob

Me

After so many years, finally I have the time and opportunity to take self photo for memories..The whole package was kinda cheap, RM38.00, inclusive of make-up, hair setting and free one A4 size photo..15 poses were taken and extra charges needed if you want to develop extra photos..My dad was very excited to see this photo and he even bought a photo frame for me the next day.haha...but unfortunately, it was not suitable..:P

Life back to normal again

Yippie, exam had over..I would like to thank all friends and CG members for all your prayers..indeed God answered prayer..Initially I was quite worry that I am not able to finish 95 questions in 3 hours..which means 1.89 seconds/qs. The question is not short and it takes 30 seconds, at least, to read and understand the question, then have to read through the options and start flipping the book for answer..But I couldn't finish the last few questions, I think around 5 qs.so hopefully this time, I could get through it..tired of studying and exams already...

Let me update you on some happenings stories lately..
On Sunday (14/5), Mother's day, we had 2 nice meals..sis and I shared the bills..we had dim sum for brunch (on my treat), then we went to an ordinary restaurant for dinner..dinner was interesting...Mum was responsible for ordering of food..we had fried 'zi hun gen', 'lor mi suah', a vege and a 5 season course..6 of us went..the food was nice except for the 5 season, which was out of our expectation..it was huge (10 person portion) and beautiful..something different from the usual 5 season you eat in wedding dinner...very creative and tasty..and got oyster in it..When the waiter served this dish, all of us 'Wah' especially sis, because dinner is on her treat.haha..so when bill came, the other 3 meals was reasonable. The 5 season costed RM120.00..very expensive, can eat sharkfins already..at last, my aunt paid 80% of the bills and sis paid 20%..

Recently, we had a new member in our family-a kitten..her mother was killed in a dog fights and she managed to escape from that by hiding in my house (the back kitchen)..quite pitiful so mum decided to keep her as pet and named her 'Lui Lui'-means daughter in Cantonese..the reason being we had a male dog named 'Zhai Zhai'-which means son in Cantonese. but the funniest part is that we aren't sure that this kitten is a she or he, we just take for granted that it should be a 'she'..haha...Anyway, all the family members love the kitten so much..well, she is indeed very cute, black and white in colour, very obedient (only occasionally pee at the store room and mum was very angry)..I don't really like cats but I guessed, this is an exceptional case..so now, my expenses had increased because I have to buy cat food now, apart from dog food..
Last Saturday, I took 'Lui Lui' to the vet, to eat deworming pills and also to check on its sex, whether she or he..haha..and the doctor had confirmed that 'Lui Lui' is a HE...i laughed on the spot and asked the doctor to teach me how to identify..so immediately, i asked the nurse to change the name on the medical card to "Boy Boy' (couldn't think of a nice name at that time)..However, we still call him 'Lui Lui' at home..My dog didn't really like to mix with him, but 'Lui Lui' ikes to disturb him...so it was kinda happy to have 2 pets now, tht bring lots of joy and fun into our family..

After a long study leaves, I am back to work..jobs responsibilities are getting heavier and management expectations also increase..tension..

I am going for another church camp end of this month, 3D2N in PD..then probably going to Singapore at beginning of June to visit my sister and cousins, and also shopping..hehe..looking forward for that..
This month wil be the 3rd annual gathering for me and gangs-EW birthday..stil deciding on the venue...nevermind, will wait for her to come back from Bali and let her decide..

The call

Today is the second day of my study leave and I am already so bored..haha..shouldn't have said that and am not suppose to sit in front of pc and write blog now..haha..
Revision had been smooth..I am basically reading through the whole modules and attempting questions..exam is next Monday and I just hope I can do it, by the grace of God.
Yesterday, I received an unexpected call from a friend, whom I had lost contact for almost a year..I sent him an e-card on his birthday and I guessed he was very touched about that..I truly appreciated our friendship and didn't want it to end in such a way, because of some misunderstandings perhaps..anyway, I was very happy to receive his call..
Tomorrow, I will be watching Mission Impossible 3 with my CG members..can't wait to see Tom Cruise on big screen..:)

An unforgettable experience

Praise God for the 3D2N YM Mission camp at Fraser's Hill..everything went on smoothly..
Day 1-I was late for the ice breaking and briefing sessions..actually, 10 of us were late as we travelled later in the noon..reached Shanzan Inn at around 7.30pm and managed to have dinner..Joined in for themetalk 1..Bro Wye Choon was indeed a very experienced and suitable speaker for this camp...
I shared room with my sister, WT and Charmane..had a good chat with Charmane, espcialy interviewing her on her interesting job..
Day 2-attended YM first inangural Sunday Service..with YM president, Mama May as the chairlady and Pr John, the speaker..sharing with us on "Trading off your life"..
Then, a workshop conducted by Bro Wye Choon and team members, sharing with us more on the work of OM..
After lunch, telematch, involving the youths and EWS congregation..We played 4 games-Limbo rock, The longest ine, Three-legged game and Treasure hunt..All of us had a wonderful fellowship..
India Night was the highlight of the day..I managed to borrow an indian suit from my friend..I think there were only 4 youths wearing Indian costumes..The decoration of the hall was superb.all credits to Bro Oon Sin and his teams..marvellous..Sis Pari shared with us on the needs of people of India..especially the Dalit people..They were seen as the most 'cheapest' group of people and have no dignity at all..It was very sad to hear that and we should be grateful to God, for living in such a peaceful country, and the freedom of human rights..Bro Wye Choon also shared with us on the needs of Sudan people..later, a special calling to those who are willing to offer himself/herself to serve Him in mission fields..and praise God, more than 10 youths responded to the calling..
Day 3-last day of the camp..themetalk 2 and prayers, wrapped up these 3D2N camp..
During lunch, all of us were being reminded not to eat too full, to avoid any vomitting or uneasy situations on our way back to Klang...The journey was really terrible..imagine we have to sit in the car, rounding the hill, like a F1 track, for an hour...my head was already spinning and finally, I gave up..vomitted..and I told myself, no more second time..unless I am the driver...haha
Fortunately after reaching home, I could rest for 1 hour before attending a member's wedding dinner at night..

GBU

Dear Bloggie,

Its lunch hour and I am having coffee+biscuits..I am alone in office now..as always..this is the second cup of coffee for the day..and I knew this is not good for health, especially I have gastric problem..but I am coffee lover.can't resist the aroma and taste of it..that's why I have a bad habit of not finishing the whole cup of coffee..each time, I just took few sips and then wil pour the rest away...haha..terrible isnt' it..

Last week, my assistant was on MC..she sms me and she wrote GBU at the end of her msg..I couldnt figure out what does it mean..so today, I asked her..GBU=God bless you...I laughed on the spot..what an abbreviation..first time seeing it..

This week, I will be going up to Fraser Hills, for church camp..after weeks of meetings and planning, finally the day has come..and hehe, I got to save one day of annual leave..
initially, I took a day off on Saturday (29/4)..but since now I could go up the hill later in the noon, so means I can still come to work on Saturday and cancel off my leave..you might ask, why so troublesome..well, this leave is very precious to me ler..especially during year end, for my next exam..currently, my annual leave left 3.5 days..how to survive till end of the year??!!

Exam is getting nearer and nearer..one on hand, I wish that I have more days to prepare for it..on the other hand, I hope that it will over soon..gosh...so tension...

It's Good Friday

Its Good Friday..remembering Jesus's crucification on the cross, His blood cleansed al our sins, and rose again 3 days later..Amen.
Early morning, I had to climb up from my bed and headed to KLIA to fetch my cousin from Australia. Uncle was there with me too.I told him that I have not been driving so fast in my life..though its only at a speed of 120, but I coud fee my car dancing in the air already..haha..but thank God, the journey was safe..
THis year, Uncle SS , Laura and Ben are back for easter holidays..and my parents and sis were back from their HK trip yesterday too..so all of a suden, the silence at home (I was home alone) turned to a party..
Sis got me some souvenirs..and she had the chance to visit HK Disneyland..good for her..
I had finished all my modules...now its time to do revision and attempt questions..I was browsing through CPA website and realised that theres lots to read, esp on the Austraian Standards!..darn..
Dear Lord, please grant me wisdom and knowledge in my studies..I will be grateful to pass this paper...

Happy Anniversary to me

Happy Anniversary..for what?..3 days ago, I celebrated my one year serving in this current company..is was just like stepping into this company not long ago..but time flies..really fast.
For the past one year, I had learned many things, especially dealing with people..and get involved in operations..working with good colleagues..though sometimes there are many misunderstandings among each other..and having 3 different assistants..not that I am not a good leader..the reason they left the company is not because of me ler..so don't get me wrong..
Well, I didn't know whether there will be 2nd anniversary for me, or maybe 3,4 etc...who knows...I asked for God's guidance and protection everyday.perhaps, God has a plan on me..yet to be discover..

Dear Bloggie,

April fool this year was nothing special..didn't get fooled or fooled someone..I guessed I am too old for this tricks..
Yesterday was the 1st workshop for Auditing..I went with one of my friend who is also sitting for exam, but different subject..The course presenter was good, at least her class is not boring..previously here was only 1 session for Auditing but this year, there is 2..in fact, she had completed the course yesterday..so I guessed for the next workshop, we will be having Q&A session..Then, somethinig special this year as we were given buffet lunch..having said that, the fee was slighly higher than last year..which means, it actually inclusive of 2 buffet lunch...so I was a bit bengang ler..haha..
I have 1.5 modules to be completed..then I need to spend lots of time in attempting exam questions, as much as possible..Hope that with my previous working experience, I can do it!
For the past few weeks, I enjoyed my weekends (Fri-Sun night)..why? coz there are too many TV programs to watch..
Fri-American Idol, Survivor-The Exile Island
Sat-The biggest loser
Sun-Guess Guess Guess, Project Runaway, Apprentice
I always enjoyed real life programs, very entertaining and you get to learn humans behaviour from those shows..I would like to thank my sister for accompanying me to chase all these programs..at least I won't be laughing alone there on the sofa..hehe
Yesterday during the buffet lunch, I was just telling my friend on these shows..and she was surprised that I have the time to watch TV programmes...haha..wel it made me fee a bit guilty but then, sometimes, you need to be relax and give yourself a treat, at least I didnt treat myself with karaoke session, go to the pub, disco etc..haha..
So I asked her," then, tell me hows your life? I mean how do you spend your day?"
"Everyday I reached home around 7pm++, then after taking bath, I start studying till midnight, in between I give myself a break. Then, study resume after taking my 'dinner'..sleep at 2am+"...
My jaw dropped after hearing what she said..this is terrible..I mean I don't think I can do the same as her..I will suffer..no way mann..during my schooling times, I am not used to staying awake and study for my exam..to me, sleeping is equally important..I do not believe that by studying in such a manner will earn you good result..besides, this is not good for health...but then, I do respect friends with such studying manner..
In another 5 days, my parents will be leaving for Hong Kong..for these few days, they have been talking about it day and night..I can't stand it..especially when I am not going for this trip! darn..

1/4 of the year

Dear Bloggie,

3 days to end of March, which means 1/4 of the year had gone..I would like to thank God for His protection for the past 3 months..though I would say that I wasn't quite happy during this period of time but God sent angels to comfort me..
As for studies, I had completed 6 modules, 2 more to go..exam is on 15/5, which means 1.5 months away..This time I am taking Auditing paper..well, I would say not so tough as I had 2.5 years of audit experience and it's more like a revision topic..but then, lots of theories to read and the most difficult part, is to understand and remember the facts..90 mcq questions to be completed in 3 hours, 2 min/qs..must really control the time well..by the way, it's open-book exam..haha..that's why is important to familiarise with the book..then can save time flipping through the pages for answers..
For the next 3 months, as usual, I will be very busy..
Apr'06-
1) 2 CPA workshops to attend
2) Easter day celebration
3) camp to attend
May'06
1) EXAM
2) various meetings to attend
June'06
1) various meetings to attend
My parents and sis are going to HongKong for vacation..except me..sob sob..They just came back from Singapore last Feb, and now to HK..how nice..means I will be home alone again, with my 'son', zhai zhai..There are pro and cons to be alone..I can avoid hearing my mum's grumbling for 5 days, freedom at home, basicaly peace at home...but have to prepare own meals, clean house etc..
I had already inform sis to get me souvenirs..hopefully she know what to do..

A small reunion

Yesterday was the 2nd annual gathering for me, EW, CS and Rita..It was CS's birthday...we had pizza..suggested by me (haven't been eating pizza for long)..and if I were to eat it alone, I couldn't finish the whole pan..anyway, 3 of us enjoyed the dinner (Rita couldn't make it) and of course, updating each other on current news/happenings..CS met accident recently, EW going to Bali..all the girly talks...
After dinner, on our way back home, we met an unexpected friend..I mean, we were just mentioniong his name during dinner time and now, we met him!!..a primary friend whom I havent seen for more than 5 years..unbelievable..so 5 of us (MW and his fiance) ended up in mamak..
We had a wonderful chat..talking on all our friends, from primary to secondary.."what is Ms X doing now?".."Have you seen Mr Y lately?".."hey, did you know Ms Z got married recently?"..haha. we were like chatting on all our friends, from A-Z..and can't help laughing..It was good, to be abe to meet 'old' friends, chatting and laughing together..
I am looking forward to our 3rd annual gathering on May..EW birthday..

Another unforgetable moment

Another quarrel with mum, a BIG one..and it was terrible..and as you know, during quarrel, any words can just come out from your mouth spontaneously..
I cried terribly..and it was not good for health..as it really took up lots of my energy and i think i had killed many cells in my body..heart now is very hurt..really HURT.
This time it was clearly my fault and I was ready to bear all the circumstances..
Suddeny I felt like a stranger at home..

Back to normal

Dear bloggie,

I just wanna tell you and all my friends who are reading that I am back to normal already..my EQ had came back..and I would like to thank all of you for your care, love and supports..Thank God for you..
I had finally completed 2 modules of my CPA paper..6 more to go in 8 weeks before my paper on 15/5/06..if with the pace I am going right now, I have to complete at least 1 module per week, then left 2 weeks for revision and attempting to some questions...please pray for me especially for good time management and self discipine..
Yesterday I led edification in CG and I felt that I had done a good job with the help of some good materials , pastors and of course, our Heavenly Father.. I used to have fear when it's my turn to lead..perhaps I didn't spend enough time in preparation and ask Him for wisdom..I think I learnt my lesson here..and looking forward for more opportunities to lead..Thank you for Pr CM's compliment...I will remember on what you said and don't worry, you will see me again, serving in SS soon..and about your challenge..I will try my best to save $$$ and hopefully in 2 years time, I will join you in Egypt..
As for work, nothing much happening but to meet deadlines and management's requirements..I was sharing with a friend that it was better to become an auditor than involving in the position I am right now..during my 2.5 years in audit firm, I had the opportunity to audit many types of accounts (manufacturing, trading, non-profit organisation, lawyer, construction etc)..Whenever you found a mistake or something wrong with the accounts, you could request the client to clarify the problems..I am not saying as an auditor, you can just 'throw' the problems to your client..but if compared with commercial line, the position I am at now..I have to learn how to deal with people and to solve the problems myself before bringing them up to the management..there's no third party who I can 'pass' the problem to ..You get what I mean here arh..hehe..I think I am lost in writing..Conclusion, I am just too weak in PR..dealing with people is the most difficult lesson to learn in life..but you can't escape from it too as you are meeting people everyday...anyway, I agreed with my friend -she said think positively, when you are trying to solve a problem, you learn something..instead of during audit time, you request for client to solve the problem and give you the answer..then you had missed the process of solving..true also..so I guessed I am just giving myself excuses to avoid the reality...hehe..
OK..gotta stop here..lunch hour over..bye

Depression

Dear Bloggie,

Sorry for not writing and updating...I was too busy with work, studies, church ministries (YM, CG, SS, Choir etc)..until I had lost my focus and priorities..where should I start?..I am afraid as I am writing here, I will cry..but I will try to hold my tears as I am now in office..no private space for me to hide my teary face...

WORK
Had been working for 11 months with this company..Praise God for this 11 months..had my early job confirmation, salary adjustments, bonus, job recognition..
Last 2 weeks, my FC called me for a meeting and had given me an important task..she would like me to handle and understand 100% on the transport department matters. Currently my job scope:-
1) in charged of lorries dept-drivers ' commission, lorries repair and maintenance, lorries profit & loss analysis
2) bank reconciliation of Company A
3) full set of account for Company B
4) Closing of jobs to recognise profit
5) assist in Company A's finance operations
Now, FC would like me to become an expert in transport department..any questions asked from the management, I must be able to answer at my finger tips..she did help me to outline and guide me on how to go about it...I agreed with her on:-
1) if i continue to do what i am doing now, i would not learn much and it's a waste as i have the qualification but doing something that a diploma holder can do
2) if i have the expertise in one area, even if i left this company and work with another company with similar nature, i would have the advantage there
To be honest, i didn't know whether to be happy or sad...all i know that this is very challenging because i have to spend lots of time to sit down and think/plan on what should i do first..i am grateful to my FC for her patience and help..and i think because of this, i overstress myself..i wanted to prove to her that i can do it..not just listen, say yes yes yes, then no actions done..
Another thing that make me furious is the attitute of my assistant..terrible..if her work is slow down or not done, then it will affect my part..

STUDIES
I am taking one paper for CPA this semester..exam is on 17/5/06..3 months away from now...have to finish 8 modules...due to poor time management, i hardly finish the first module..and i felt very bad and stress..mum had been nagging everyday..she was unhappy with me for failing last semester..blaming me that i didn't spend enough time to study and over-active in church ministries...this is what i hated to hear...i often ask myself, how come most of my CHristian friends' parents, they were so supportive to their children, but my mum is different...i felt she is not understanding...you think i am not sad for failing the paper..i paid RM1900+++ for it..i wanted to pass the paper also..but no positive words/encouragement from my family..i had a tough time too..friends told me that sometimes mum's nagging is good, at least it acts as a reminder to us..i agreed but don't think it apply to everyone...I think i said this before..if you see me crying..the main reason is that i had an argument with mum again...everytime i quarrel with her, i felt so bad...even if i am not the one initiating the fight.
i knew for this semester, i have to try extra harder to pass this paper...i didnt want to give any chance to listen to anymore negative comments!
but from Jan'06 till now, i hardly have time to sit down and study..even if i have the time, it is always late at night..less than an hour...no energy to study..sleepy..next day..have to settle other things..gosh..what should i do..i admit that my time management is poor here..

CG
Serving as the CG leader was not an easy task..lots of responsibilities and everyone is observing and putting high hopes on you..i admitted that i gave myself lots of stress here..i wanted to make sure everything is under control, each member is well taken care of, each cg meeting is properly scheduled, members felt the sense of belonging etc...
I am grateful to all my members who have been so helpful and supportive..

YM
Another responsibility here...all CG leaders and co-leaders are automatically the committees of YM and each one of us play major role...activities are on every month..meetings to attend...for this month, i was assigned to be in charged of the Feb event, cooking competition, along with another sister in Christ..then along the planning, unexpected problems occur..bird flu (initially we set the main ingredient to be chicken), raining season..I was so stress on that day that i skipped dinner..Praise God, this event had finally over and was successful..
Next major event is YM mission camp on 29/4-1/5. I am one of the camp committee, which mean lots of meetings to attend (which i fear most), things to settle..just pray God will grant me wisdom and knowledge to overcome all stress and obstacles..

Church ministries
From this year onwards, I had actually withdraw myself from few ministries..Currently I am involve in CG, YM, Choir, P&W backup singers, SS resource centre (and i knew its still a lot).Almost everyday, I am occupied with church ministries..
Tues-CG
Wed-Choir practice
Sun-spend most of the day in church
then attending meetings during weekdays too (if any)..I understand why sometimes mum is so furious about me..24 hours a day, 168 hours a week..my family time is so limited.
47 hours at office, average 15 hours for church ministries, average 42 hours sleeping, then left 64 hours for me to do my personal things...I work on every Sat till 1pm. By the time I reach home, I am tired. Then usually there will be church meetings on Saturday..Next day, I spend 7 hours in church from morning till afternoon..
I have not been cleaning my room for ages...occasionally, my dad is the one that clean up my room..i felt so guity..dad is no longer young..i should be serving him not the other way round..
Yesterday, one of the main reason why i quarrelled with mum is because of miscommunication..I was involved in P&W and had to be in church by 7.30am..usually my sister will fetch mum to church for 2nd service which starts at 9.30am..but sis can't fetch her yesterday..so i suggested that sis fetch her to church at 9.30am then i will fetch her home at 1pm (she has women society gathering)..or another option is that i fetch her to women society gathering at 11am then fetch her back at 1pm...mum was there when sis and I discuss on her transportation matter..but mum did not response to our suggestions..so i assume she will ask sis to fetch her at 9.30am and then follow me back at 1pm..
So my plan for next day is:-
7.30-9am -attend first service and at the meantime, helping in the P&W
9.30-10am - stay back for a while to help out in P&W and choir
10-11.30am - go home and do some house chores
11.30am-1pm - return to church to help out in SS resource centre
1pm - go home with mum
But i was wrong..next day at about 9.18am, mum called me (but i didn't realise, my hp was in silent mode)..she actually thought i am suppose to go home and fetch her to church..so ended up, she came to church herself with her motorcycle..when i reached home at 10.15am, i knew i am in trouble already..mum will certainly scold me for not fetching her..so as i expected..a big quarrel occured,..she blaimed that i should inform her that i can't fetch her to church..i was there defending myself that i didn't promise her i am fetching her..i thought sis will do so..in conclusion, MIS-COMMUNICATION..then mum was so angry that she shouted why i kept singing on stage (i was the backup singers last Sunday and this Sunday)..no one else that can sing and help? mum said that i love to be on stage, to show off myself, my voice etc..i felt so hurt...how could she say that..she is not thinking from the perspective of a Christian..i am singing because i am serving the Lord..there is no reason for me to be on stage just to gain attraction...her words really hurt me deeply and without taking my lunch, i cried myself to bed.. have not been crying so terribly like yesterday..at that moment, i felt like no one actually understand me..

Yesterday i had my worst day...serving as backup singers was terrible..perhaps due to late sleep after the iron chef, i couldn't sing well and i felt so guilty for my praise leader..i was standing on stage, holding the microphone but no voice coming out from me..all i wanted is to come down the stage as soon as possible..then argument with mum..

This morning, i was lying on bed, asking myself should i come to work...i was so reluctant as i am too tired and weary..but i have deadlines to meet..so i forced myself to work...from morning till now, tears had been dropping..i couldn't cry myself loud and have to pretend nothing has happen..in my mind, everything is sad and negative..i think i am sick..suffering from depression already..i knew friends around are very concern of my situation now..don worry...i knew my current situation is terrible but it will soon go off..all i need is time to relax and rest...and I knew God understand me and is going through these hard times together with me..Amen

Happy valentine's day

For God so loVed the world
That He gAve
His onLy
BegottEn
SoN
That whosoever
Believeth In Him
Should Not perish
But have Everlasting life
John 3:16